Whole 30 – 5 days!

Today was day 5, and life is still good!

Apparently, Hubby and I both like orange roughy! We made parchment paper packets with broccoli, orange roughy, and a dill/garlic/mayo/lemon sauce. We paired it with mashed cauliflower creamed with coconut oil.

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Ok, so this is NOT my orange roughy. It’s just a generic fish fillet picture. The problem was that the actual meal was SO good, it was GONE in record time, so I never got a picture! I think it’s been our favorite meal, so far.

I have to say that trying out all of the new recipes is one of the best parts of this Whole thing. (haha, I just couldn’t resist!)

Of course, I say that now, on day FIVE. I suspect my tune will change as I continue to do dishes (we don’t own a dish washer) and have to cook every night (in the heat with no AC). I’m already looking at next week’s menu and trying to simplify things a bit.

Speaking of stupid heat:hot and late

Note the bottom right hand corner, where it says this was both my HOTTEST run AND my LATEST run! UG! Oh yeah, it was totally a walk, not a run, because you know.. the HEAT!

Other than that, there’s not much going on. I’m eating, running (kinda), teaching (kids have been back for 2 days), cooking, and cleaning… basic life stuff!

Oh, I almost forgot! I’ve been SOOOOO tired the last two days. I cannot keep my eyes open and I just want to sleep. The problem/gift is that I have no idea if it’s back-to-school exhaustion or Whole 30 exhaustion. I’ll likely never really know, since both/either should pass by the middle of next week. For now I’m just trying to stay awake 1 class period at a time.

Whole 30 Day 2

I found a “timeline” that suggests some of the more common “symptoms” that come throughout the Whole 30 month. According to that, it’s common for day 1 to feel great and day 2 to feel like a hangover. I’m not experiencing that. I still feel completely normal.

I mentioned that I’m nervous about this whole thing, and I have to explain. When I was in college, Atkins was all the rage. A few of my friends were doing it and asked me to give it a try with them. I was running a little now and then for fun, and was in decent shape. I wasn’t unhappy with my body, but what college girl doesn’t think losing a few pounds would be good? So I agreed to give it a shot.

3 days later, I was curled up on my dorm room floor sobbing hysterically. My roommate  handed me half a gallon of ice cream. After finishing ALL of it, I went to the store, bought a loaf of bread, and ate all of that too. I felt MUCH better and swore to never turn my back on carbs again!

That was more than 10 years ago, and I now realize that giving up all carbs entirely while weighing 140 lbs and running was stupid. Ketosis is NOT my friend!

At first glance, I was worried Whole 30 would be similar – but it’s not! I can eat potatoes, sweet potatoes, and fruit! Knowing that I’m running some of my highest mileage this month (30 miles/week is my max, and I’ll hit that the last week of the month), I want to make sure I’m getting enough carbs.

I also know that hunger is my enemy. If I get too hungry, I will freak out and eat anything and everything in sight… and then I’ll go find more!

With all of this in mind, I’m choosing to let myself snack. I know the program wants me to focus on 3 meals/ day, but I know myself well enough to know that will not end well.

I’m trying to really ask myself if I’m really feeling hungry, and if the answer is, “yes!” I’m eating something only after drinking 8-10 oz of water to confirm it’s not thirst in disguise.

burger

I left off the mayo, because I REFUSE to make my own. That said, these burgers were delicious!!!!!

I’m eating foods I love and trying new recipes that are (so far) amazing! But I worry that I’m eating too much. (Apparently, I love chicken sausage, and now I know how to make my own Potato Leek soup – that is WAY better than store bought!)

I’m trying really hard to just trust the process. I’m doing this because I want to drop my migraines, reduce my flatulence, and get my whole digestive system back under control (it got CRAAAZZY! this summer). Losing a couple pounds would be cool, but it’s not my goal. My fear is that I’ll step on the scale after this month and weigh 232 lbs again. (I know, this is one of those “out-there,” “looney-tunes,” “bring-on-the-straight-jacket” fears.)

Seriously, though – with how much I’ve been struggling the past 8 months (I’ve gain 10 lbs!), I’m having hard core nightmares about regaining all the weight I worked so hard to lose!

Stepping so far away from what’s worked for me in the past is a big leap of faith for me. Luckily, I’m too stubborn to quit something once I start it, so… for better or worse – I’m all in!

I also ran 4 miles between the end of our teacher workday and the start of Back-to-School Night!

Update & Start Whole30

Oh Boy, has it been crazy recently! Hubby and Little Man came to join me for the last couple days in PA. After 2 weeks apart, I was REALLY excited to see them again! One of my cousins was kind enough to watch Little Man for a bit while Hubby and I enjoyed a hike. It was really nice to have 4 miles of peace and quiet to catch up with each other and just hang out.

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The Hubs! We had fun hopping from rock to rock into the middle of the creek!

Of course, then it was right back to Grandma. We got her “settled” (with her dementia, there really is no such thing) in rehab. Her physical therapy started out REALLY bad. She didn’t understand what was happening and refused to work with them. I hated leaving her while we still weren’t sure if things were going to work (if she refused too many sessions, Medicare would have forced them to discharge her). The therapists were wonderful and patient, but Grandma was NOT dealing well, so it was just a really bad situation. It killed me to leave, but I had to start teacher workdays.

Luckily, things with Grandma have improved. She’s actually doing really well in PT, now. She’s not back to using her walker, but she is walking her wheelchair up and down the hall! She still has bad days – my sister called me to vent after Grandma hit her a few time this past week – but mostly things are getting better. I’ll go back up over Labor Day, so I will be able to see her again soon.

As life has started to settle into our school year routine, I’ve decided to kick things off with a month of WHOLE30! (I’m secretly super nervous about it, but… life is about taking risks!) (Side note – how old am I to see a “diet” as risk-taking!?!)

In the past, I’ve had trouble with migraines. They start with aura and end with me dizzy and vomiting. In the past, they’ve always been diet-related. I know that any kind of artificial sweetener causes them and caffeine prevents them (I gave it up once and after 30 days I was experiencing almost daily migraines).  I’ve found that too much artificial food dye, especially red, often triggers them, as well. I’ve been down to just 1 or 2 per year for the last couple years, but in the last month, I’ve had half a dozen!

Thanks to the aura, I can medicate early and stop them before they become debilitating, but it still sucks. I’m hoping Whole30 will help me figure out what’s causing them, so that I can be sure to stop eating it!

I’ve also had more digestive issues this summer. I suspect my lactose intolerance is getting worse with age. I figure 30 days without any is a great way to confirm that suspicion.

Add to all of that the fact that I’m starting this school year almost 10 lbs heavier than I started last school year, and well… clearly SOMETHING needs to change. (Of course, some of it might be the 2 doughnuts my sister brought me every morning when I spent the night in the hospital with Grandma.)

So, today is day 1 of 30. I woke up weighing 164.1 lbs. My waist (directly under my rib cage) measured 34.5″ and my hips (at the fattest part of my butt) was 42.5″

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I caught this little fella noshing on a mushroom on the school nature trail, this week. He’s a messy eater, but appeared to be enjoying his food!

PS – Sorry for the long post! Hopefully returning to a normal routine will lead to more regular posts which, in turn, will be a bit shorter.

 

Stitches of time

Sometimes we measure time in minutes, hours, and even years. Other times, we find ourselves measuring time in much smaller increments. When this happens, I crochet.

In 2015, I spent 8 days making an afghan while watching my grandfather slowly starve to death (he refused to live on a feeding tube, and I supported his decision). I sat with my grandma, talked with her, played cards, explained that he wasn’t getting better every time she needed to hear it.

I helped her get ready for his funeral. As sad as it was, I really enjoyed spending the time with her.

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This is Grandma and I on the morning of my grandfather’s funeral.

It was just after he passed that I decided I was done being fat and started this journey. Now, a full 2 years later (yep, totally missed my fitiversary), I find myself working on another afghan as I sit with my grandma.

She spent the last week in the hospital, and there were several times when we thought this would be it. She was discharged today, so she’s not dead yet, but I still worry. At almost 90 years old, the end is a bit inevitable. That said, I want her final times to be enjoyable, comfortable, and happy. She’s in rehab now, and I worry about how well they’ll take care of her, and how much improvement she’ll make.

A month ago, she was using a walker and enjoying assisted living. Now, she can’t even stand up on her own, and her mental state has deteriorated enough to end our card games. She no longer remembers that her husband is dead, and often calls me by the wrong name, but we still laugh, stick out our tongues, and remember the summers I spent working in her grocery store while I crochet. Every stitch counts as time spent with her.

Anyway, it’s kept me busy. I’ve been staying overnight at the hospital, since she wakes up confused and upset in the middle of the night sometimes. I’m happy I can be there for her, but it’s been a long and exhausting week. I’m hoping things get better now that she’s in rehab.

In any case, I’m still running, though my mileage is down a bit. I’m mostly making healthy food choices, though I haven’t been on a scale in a long time, now. I should be heading home this weekend, since I have to be back at school at the start of next week. Who knows what that weigh-in will look like, but I’ll be posting it, either way.