July 25, 2015
This week is going to be a real trial for me. My dearly beloved family is off visiting other family, leaving me home ALONE. Now, I should point out that they did not simply abandon me, nor did I pitch a fit and refuse to join them. I’m staying home to take care of the animals and because I could really use to the week of peace and quiet to a) clean the house, b) get ready for the school year, and c) take a quick trip to see my grandmother before all hell breaks loose (the time known to non-teachers as August (and December)… (and May)… you get the idea).
Normally, I would spend all week devoted to food and seeing how close I can get to actually turning into that inflated blueberry girl from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. This week WILL be different. Correction, TODAY will be different. I will think about tomorrow, tomorrow. Today I completed workout #3 of C25K. I pushed myself, because it felt easier today, and I was feeling good. That meant that finishing was tough, but I did. I did NOT quit, and as a reward for my perseverance, my handy-dandy little app informed me that I traveled 2.2 miles in 30 minutes today, instead of my previous 2 miles! YAY! I did pause at the halfway point to take a picture, because it was just so pretty. I really do love where we live right now!
This is almost exactly 1 mile from my house.
I did go to the store today, but I only bought food that I will be proud to eat. I had to really think about how to word that last sentence, because I didn’t only buy “healthy” food. I didn’t buy any “diet” food, and I would actually consider some of what I bought to border on “indulgent.” Here’s my list, and then I’ll explain: Creamy Almond Butter, Wildflower Honey, Quick Oats, Vanilla, Apples, Carrots, Steak, Almond Milk, Heavy whipping cream, and frozen berries. I also bought lots of general stuff like dog food and toilet paper, but I didn’t think you’d care to hear about that.
Since this is only week one, I’m completely unqualified to say anything about what does work. Since this is attempt number 465,382.4, I can tell you about an undetermined number of things that did NOT work for me. Since you are not me, feel free to try them for yourself:
- Eating mostly salad – this just left me dissatisfied and so ravenously hungry I recall visualizing my husband as a giant loaf of bread with burgers for feet, steaks for hands, mashed potatoes for a head, and an ice cream sundae on top. It doesn’t help that while I love an occasional salad – the key word is “occasional.”
- Closing the kitchen at 7pm – the first time I tried this I just started hiding food in the bedroom, bathroom, and anywhere else that wasn’t the kitchen. The second time I tried this it actually worked fairly well, until life stepped in and kept me out past 7. Then I was faced with skipping dinner or breaking the rule. Once the rule was broken…
- Eliminating Carbs – Atkins was big when I was in college, so I tried it. I think it was around the 36 hour mark that I broke down and ordered a pizza and cheesy bread and ate every bit of it.
- Any plan that tells me not to eat something – even if the whole plan is just that I’m not allowed to eat chicken liver, that will be the day that I decide I absolutely MUST try chicken liver with onions.
- Low calorie eating – this one may sound like contradiction since I’m counting calories, but I think there is a big difference between “tracking” the calories you eat and “limiting” the calories you eat. Thinking about it as tracking means that I get to eat until I’m satisfied. The tracking just reminds me to choose something that has a reasonable enough calorie count that it won’t break myfitnesspal and to stop once I am satisfied. By putting the food before the calories, I feel like my daily calorie count is an achievement (when I stay where I’m supposed to), but it never becomes a punishment. I just eat what I eat, and as long as I track it, I’m sticking to my plan.
This doesn’t even come close to covering all of the that doesn’t work for me, but it’s a start to explain why I focus on getting the quality and quantity of food that truly satisfies me. Nut butters give me the sweetness I crave, but they are easier for me to put down when I’m satisfied. This morning, I had cold oats with milk and a teaspoon of peanut butter, a half teaspoon of vanilla, and a sprinkle of cinnamon. It was something that felt like a super delicious “treat,” and it really satisfied my hunger. It was a reasonable breakfast, and I didn’t feel the need to keep eating once it was gone. I keep reminding myself that it’s okay to have a 500 calorie meal. My concept of “appropriate” is way out of whack when it comes to food.